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Do I have either a self-perception problem or an eating disorder?
I lost 30 pounds lately and I went to exremes to do so. Now at 14 years old, I'm 5'2" and around 105 107lbs. I wasn't fat to begin with, just chubby, but the more weight I lose, the more I feel I need to lose and the worse I feel. Today I woke up and I could've sworn that since I had finished a 10 day detox program which made me shed seven pounds, I gained them all back and then some. I literally felt fatter then when I started the pills, but I just ate a huge dinner which I seriously regret like crazy right now and weighed myself. I'm full of food and feel extremely fat, even though I felt fat when I was hungry too, but the scale said I'm 105 pounds. Then I looked in the mirror in that bathroom and I looked a ton skinnier than I did in my bedroom mirror and my other bathroom mirror. I OBSESS over my looks because I'm an insanely vain and jealous person, but though that has been good motivation for me, it has also made me more and more miserable. Could i possibly have some sort of problem, or is this just a result of strong personality traits?No, this isn't restricted to weight. I want a nose job, but everyone tells me I have a perfectly normal nose. I hate my profile view because of my nose and the indents my high cheekbones make across my face. I spend so much money on skincare products and use them religiously. I hate everything about my skin my aunt says my arms have some type of skin condition with no cure. They're red and blotchy with some raised red bumps that can be painful at times. I have acne, but I have it mostly under control. I have little skin colored bumps on my chin that are barely visible, but I'm extremely concious of them in sunlight. I absolutely loathe my hair color, freckles, hairstyle, wow I'm making myself sound like a crazy person. I think I need to see a professional, but I feel like I'm so terrible hideous that it's not a perception disorder, I'm just actually THAT UGLY, but like I've gotten lots of compliments before and boys always talk to me not them when I go out with my friends...I feel like my eyes are far too small even though I like the color and I work so hard with make up constantly to make them look bigger. I spend tons of money and time on make up. I have major dark circles under my eyes that I always feel like people are staring at. When my hair has the slightest wave to it, I'm extremely self concious of it and put it up. And the bulge under my arm pits that everyone has and the fact that my thighs touch bothers me immensely. I have braces and thin lips, so I hate my mouth. If I'm not being complimented, I feel below ugly. I thrive off of compliments. I don't know what to do. Please help..And I'm always comparing myself to other girls, which makes me hate myself even more. I can think of tons of other things about myself that I don't like and this obsession keeps me from concentrating on school work and grades. I can't go out without make up on, and since I feel so hideous some days, it prevents me from going out altogether.
Your self-perception?
What is your height and weight?Are you happy with the way you look?Just interested
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